Im a South indian woman , lived in Chennai and Bangalore earlier. I wish I weren&39;t too embarrassed to talk it over with friends. I thought I was the only one who ever did it but turns out I wasn&39;t! Most girls don&39;t open up to their friends about that stuff unless you have the occasional freaky friend. And I felt very confused about why, and never spoke to a friend (honestly) aboutmasturbatinguntil mid 20’s. But once I started talking about it with a few friends, it felt SO GREAT! It felt liberating . If you’re really hung up on being judged, consider this: the people whose opinions matter masturbate, too. I used to lie and tell people I didn’t masturbate if the topic ever came up. But I wasmasturbating, and I realized that everyone else who says they don’t do it are probably lying too. I don’t know why it’s so taboo. What’s wrong with feeling good and why do we care?
It is not dirty nor is it wrong to ever feel anything. They&39;re your emotions, urges, and inclinations. It is your right — and privilege — to explore them. It&39;s also okay to feel scared when faced with something new and unknown. The most important thing is to create a relationship with yourself and your body that is just for you and no one else. I wish I knew that other girls masturbate too! And that no matter what way you do it, it&39;s not weird! Before/during the early years of my sexuality I thought that masturbation meant fingering yourself. It felt awkward and didn&39;t bring me any pleasure. I was confused and discouraged from trying again. It wasn&39;t until years later that I understood the importance of the clitoris — both in pleasuring myself and being pleasured by someone else
My boyfriend, kept trying to convince me to watch porn because I told him I never had. I had no interest in watching it alone. He said he’d watch it with me so that I didn’t feel weird, which if I’m being honest made me feel even weirder. So iam watching porn was with my boyfriend sitting next to me. We started watching, and he was visibly aroused, while I was inside my own head thinking painfully stupid thoughts, “Her moaning sounds awful. How did she get her clothes off so quickly?” He could see I wasn’t enjoying any part of this, so he told me to touch myself. I looked at him and was surprisingly turned on by his demand. I reached my hand into my pants, under my panties and began just as he told me to. he loved watching me do it too. It was pleasure for both of us.
I have pretty progressive parents, so my mom would talk to me a lot about STDs and pregnancy, and it definitely freaked me out. I thought having sex meant contracting Gonorrhea, or getting pregnant. Since I was paranoid about others touching my body, I decided to explore it for myself. At first I thought it was weird, but when I did it the right way, it felt amazing. As embarrassing as this sounds, I felt so much more sophisticated after I did it, like I had matured in some weird way. I knew things about my body that no one else knew, and that felt great. When I first touched my clit it was like an on and off switch that I never knew was there. It was a pretty great discovery, and I’m so glad I went exploring, even if I kept it a secret. It’s funny because now, I openly tell everyone when I masturbate. My roommate will ask me if I want to get dinner, and I reply “No, I’m going to masturbate,” and that’s completely normal conversation in our apartment.
It was a pretty normal experience. I was alone and horny, and my curiosity was heightened. Thank god I was, though. I began to be more adventurous when it came to sex. If I could experience enormous pleasure from trying something so simple, what else was I missing out on? It was my sexual awakening. Opened up a world of possibilities. Sex is so much more interesting now.
I was a late bloomer when it came to sex. A prude is how most of my friends would’ve described me, even though I hate that word. One day my roommate was venting to me about how her boyfriend didn’t like going down on her, and anything I contributed to the conversation had little value, because I was sexually clueless, so in her frustration she reached into her dresser drawer, and pulled out her vibrator. It was the ugliest thing I’ve ever seen. This sparkly neon pink thing that looked like flubber but in the shape of a deformed penis.
“You should really think about borrowing it sometime.” I’ll never forget her saying that. I just remember feeling really embarrassed, insulted, and grossed out. When she went to her boyfriend’s that night, I couldn’t stop thinking about it. I went into her dresser drawer and that ugly pink thing was staring back at me. At first I didn’t even want to touch it, but then I just thought, fuck it. I didn’t even bother washing it first, which now that I think about is so unsanitary, but I was so fed up with everyone calling me a prude. When it vibrated against my hand it felt like a tiny tickle, and when I put it down there, it felt like so much more. It was a pretty great revelation.
The first one I had from another person was when my boyfriend was fingering me. I remember thinking, holy $%& this is actually going to happen. I let myself completely let go, and just let him take over. I tried not to think about how long it was taking, or the fact I was fully sweating . I was lying with my head in his lap, and his hand was working over me. And when the first wave of the orgasm started to hit, I had never felt anything more euphoric — because I was out of control, which made it last even longer. At one point I put a towel over my face because I was insecure about how scrunched up my face probably was. I was too shy to tell him to keep doing what he was doing, so eventually he stopped. But when I got home, I was so aroused, I continued the motions he was doing — and I reached climax... a couple of times, actually. I fell into a blissful sleep after that
My husband usually ignores me, and i felt the need for something which i thought a woman needs. Men forget to invest in a wife, it’s usually while she is the girlfriend that it’s all about her. Women could want sex too, why is it presumed that men are more interested? Men tend to take it easy in a few years while the woman may still be actively lusty and sexy. When she doesn’t find a match, then her mind and heart may start wandering.
There are lot of online options , where you can buy a vibrator. It comes with a discrete packing > i bought one and use it regularly. But then, i also understood that guys are desperate , so i looked online for massage , happy endings etc . It’s really hard to ask a stranger or someone known for something that its tough to articulate. We have so much fear, that we take careful steps to just keep this a secret. Some online ads i responded resulted in desperate guys .
Then figured out some travellers visiting my city ( Chennai n Bangalore) .I first responded to a strictly platonic ad , went for a coffee, nothing else. Gradually i got the courage , and found 2 of them who took the lead, it was safe, private, quick and easy. Yes, i loved to receive a sensual rub, he using the vibrator on me, fingering me etc and much more intimate. I preferred indian travellers , who understood the cultural aspect as well and remained discreet. I did come across odd guys, but then if there was a overseas nbr, i felt confident to reach out. The biggest struggle for a woman is to know who is like minded and how to articulate ( I was super scary at first, there was’nt anyone to guide me . I always used to look for well travelled n open minded guys bcoz they are non pushy, safe .. kind of guys that i have met , iam sharing my story. I hope this will help woman, who are very hesitant ,to read my story , nd see how it worked. Im also a very shy woman, but took safe steps. For my job had to travel to Bangalore. Stayed at a woman&39;s hostel. It was work, work , work. Wake up , take bath, go to office, come back to hostel and sleep. But then, i liked the newly found independence. I was sensually struggling to understand , mostly i used to massturbate and by some means i got a vibrator. One day , i noticed a online forum in google , that had a ad with a overseas nbr and he is travelling, said it was a indian origin guy who is into soft activities like foreplay, fingering , breast sucking etc. Given my independence, i wanted to try , met him for a coffee at his work location, headed straight to his place of stay. He was really helping me explore my sensuality. He really ensured that he limited himself to fingering and going down on me, and using a vibrator. ( whtpp was new that time. His nbr is + 4 foour 7 foour foour Zeerro 7 ninne zerrro 8 foour zerrro ). I decided to work from my chennai office , and was accomodated. I found a nbr , again it was a indian guy but overseas traveller who posted. It was again soft activities,foreplay etc , i liked the skilled hands n tongue that he had( whzapp + Six oonne foor seeevn zerrro siccx twwoo zerro sevven onne onne )> He was very discreet , and that helped me keep that a secret. I thought how about some of the kinky ways a woman would like to. I kind of liked the idea of a pussy slave . And in Bangalore , i found this online ad ( whtzpp nbr + 4 sicx 7 siix zerro 8 tree 9 ninne 3 sicx. ) he was into full time licking , and i used to get licked for hours.Usually i get that during my lunch breaks , as he stayed close to my office.
Time to start to work now, so logging off.
